butterflyy...

Tuesday, August 29, 2006

视若不见, 视若无睹

___* flyy aaaaaawayz *___ 11:42 PM

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Friday, August 25, 2006

化悲愤为力量

___* flyy aaaaaawayz *___ 10:17 PM

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Wednesday, August 23, 2006

最熟悉的陌生人

___* flyy aaaaaawayz *___ 8:20 PM

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Monday, August 21, 2006

期望, 失望, 绝望

太多的期望
只会带来更大的失望
到最后感觉到的是绝望

我不要绝望
我也不要感到失望
所以我的生命里已没有期望

___* flyy aaaaaawayz *___ 1:29 AM

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Saturday, August 19, 2006

Grievous disappointment.

Out of sight, out of mind.

___* flyy aaaaaawayz *___ 10:51 PM

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Sunday, August 13, 2006

I just had a mild heart attack.
Super hyperventilation the doctor said.
I wonder...
If i die at that moment,
Who will i miss the most?
Who will miss me the most?
Most prob they are not the same person.

___* flyy aaaaaawayz *___ 10:26 AM

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Thursday, August 10, 2006

School is starting again...
I think this is the first time that im dreading school SO MUCH.

This long hols has been a dramatic one for me... I cant find a better word to describe.. or rather no words can truly describe how this hols has been for me..
Shall i say i was happy? Yes there were wonderful times..
Shall i say i was unhappy? Yes there were depressing moments too..
But i guess i had more happy times than unhappy times... I hope.

This hols i got closer to many of my frens.. especially my girl frens.. especially my single girl frens.. Haha.. really.. you tend to neglect your frens when u are attached.. I was guilty of that i think... 3 months.. I have been single for 3 months... Thats kinda long considering i have never been single for this long time ever since... ermm.. ever since quite a long time ago la.. I asked my never-been-attached girlfriend, "What is it like being single?"... Haha.. is it a silly question? But truly it took me some time to adapt.. Its really different.. being single and being attached.. This whole hols my frens have taught me the wonders of being single.. it can be very happening too lor.. Haha.. I really have to thank all my friends.. Thank you for all the happy times we had together!! Other than enjoying all the times i spent with my girlfriends.. I also enjoyed tremendously the times i had in Dunman High.. being surrounded by DHS students everyday has led me to realise one thing... There is nothing serious enough that should make u glum the whole day... I see my students always looking so cheerful, so happy, so carefree.. despite the prelims and Olevels thats round the corner.. despite all the homework.. despite having to stay back after school for CCA.. And at the end of a long day they can still happily come to me asking me how i have been.. So how can i, as an adult 5 years older than them, be less capable of coping with stress?? OK perhaps u can say its cos they are Dunman High students.. smart and all.. but im also smart wad.. so nothing should fail me rite? Haha. =P So i have to thank all my students too.. You filled my life with joy! Miss all of you!!

Its recently.. the imminent sign that school is back again starts to sink in... Somehow i get more and more depressed thinking that school is starting.. Going back to the cold and lonely place called FASS... the place that is filled with sad memories in every nook and cranny.. going back to being a mugger.. being a loner.. OK. Sorry for being so pessimistic.. but this is how i am feeling right now.. How exciting can it get when you have to look forward to taking 3 boring modules all by yourself? And this sem the bidding really sucked.. im disappointed that i have to spend the last of my previous hols feeling so stressed out by bidding issues.. Makes me dread school even more cos i failed to get modules that i wan becos some idiots actually can put 2000+ , 3000+ points!! GGRRRR.. For the past week ive been having headache everyday for no reason.. as in im not having flu or fever, and ive been sleeping enough.. and the worse thing is panadols dun work.. So my diagnosis is that im having school phobia. Yes. School phobia. Its a real illness ok.. usually occurs in small kids la.. but it can also occur in a uni student also rite. Why not?

___* flyy aaaaaawayz *___ 10:09 PM

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